Tantra & The Bible Repost

Good morning, everyone! Happy Sunday (June 29, 2025)!

I am reposting this year from my blog at ww.spirituallyawkward.com. I’m aware that not a lot of people still follow the blogs, but there may still be a few people who visit this site, who may be interested in what’s going on in my neck of the woods so to speak.

I had intended to do a Vlog about this very quickly or to even simply type it in a post, but neither of those options would have given me enough time to say what I really want to say. I’m not sure how many people are truly really paying attention anymore, but this is my safe place online where I speak my heart and thoughts. Those who truly follow, will have read this and know what’s going on.

Regarding my last post, I am doing well. For those of you that may have viewed my Instagram or Facebook, I had a little accident. I fell and had a concussion, carrying a tray in from the kids little toddler, swimming pool, just the other day. I realized how beautiful that moment was (although on the surface it was upsetting and at first, painful), and I thought it was important to share my feelings about it. Especially… after I had gotten insights from the angel Jeremiel who consoled me later on, and spoke to me on how life tends to try to knock people down, but in actuality, it really does strengthen us instead. He’s right, it does, doesn’t it?

As you all know, I can obviously heal myself, and I’m OK. However, I’m not currently accepting messages because I’m busy working. Especially on the courses. There’s a lot of deep, heavy information involved, and I want to give it my full focus.

I also want to share that, over the past week or so, I added a new lesson to the Bible course, and there will be another one coming after this weekend. Many of you know I’ve spoken about this being a lifelong journey, so I hope you don’t mind taking things slowly. The information is very profound, and I want to ensure I’m explaining everything clearly. I don’t research, I don’t pre-plan, I actually channel the information. 

Afterwards, I put a lot of care into editing it with Grammarly to make sure it’s done properly and honorably before sharing it. Most of my courses are dedicated to the Lord because it’s His knowledge I’m sharing. I especially dedicate the “Bible Untold” course to Him because I know He’s the one who has taught me everything I know.

A New Testament 

This Bible course is essentially a new Bible, something inspired by my dear friend Bella, who once told me I should have my own Bible, one written by me. I’m not claiming to be some great God or The Prophet. I do have prophetic gifts, and I am an Oracle, but I am humble, and I only have ever called myself a mere messenger. Although at times I have referred to myself as a genie🤣. But that’s OK too lol.

In all, I really am just a humble mouthpiece, here to bring wisdom, miracles, and gifts to those that seek them and believe in them. That’s all. Therefore, I don’t really want to call it a Bible, but we’ll just use that term for now metaphorically, until I can find a better word to call it.

Nevertheless, I created one.

The Bible course and another, will both come together to complete it. It’s not for sale or commercial use as of now. In fact, it’s not even done yet! I have another section to add, I’ll explain more in a moment.

The new “Bible” of sorts, will simply be for my people, and any later seekers. My daughter will someday publish it. The goal is for it to be a personal, sacred book, something to hold onto later, long after I’m gone from this earth (when the good Lord has it planned for me), so that when the website classes are no longer managed, everyone can still have a copy. 

Obviously, when I am no longer on this earth, nobody will be able to keep the websites up and running for me. 

In addition, the tantra course complements this work. When I teach about the true meaning behind the Bible and those hidden truths, the tantra course will guide you on how to truly and genuinely connect with God, live in harmony with His will, and discover your most authentic twin flame soulmate. Not only this, but it'll bring greater understanding of what those things actually mean. These are deep, profound topics, and everything will be compiled into one set. Again, the combined courses in book form isn’t for public sale; it’s meant to be kept as a sacred, personal resource, something heaven ordained long ago. Copywritten of course!

That said, I will be removing some students. Over the years, I’ve sensed that certain individuals have had bad intentions, or they simply haven’t taken my teachings seriously. There are also those who have abandoned the lessons or lack enough respect to complete even a simple homework assignment that comes with the course. I’ve never asked for homework from any of my courses—except this one.

A Quick Rant

I’m about to go off here😂💕, in a loving way.

I want to share here, as I did on Facebook: the Bible course is my heart and soul🙏🏻. I know some people might see me as strange or think I’m mentally unwell🥴 because I say “I talk to God”, but if they just did their research into the predictions I’ve made over the years, they would see that everything I’ve spoken has come true👍. I’m not here to convince anyone, I’m simply validating that I’ve never tried to lead anyone astray. I’m not a quack☺️.

I’m just a humble messenger, not claiming to be God. I’m here to deliver insights from above for those who want to explore deeper truths about themselves, about God, and about existence. I didn’t learn all of this from books alone, although I have read the Bible, the Bhagavad Gita, the Vedas, and the Quran.

Through my conversations and communication with the Lord throughout my life, He has revealed profound truths to me, about individuals, about the world, and about the deeper meanings of things. My out of body travels, pre-earth knowledge, past life experiences, astral wanderings, and communications with an unnumbered amount of beings from all realms and planes, has educated me also. For this, I’m beyond blessed in this universe. And humbled on this small speck in it, to share it with others here on earth.

My intention was always to humbly share what I’ve received and to support my family financially, nothing more. I’ve never sought fame or wealth. Consider this: look at all the people talking about spirituality, tarot, or preaching Christianity, they often have millions of views because it aligns with certain agendas. I’ve always known my information was far too deep to fit into the mainstream narrative.

There are even people out there discussing aliens and star seeds to get more views, yet they often aren’t speaking genuine truth. They mix some truths with delusions, and the system allows their content because it’s entertaining, even if it’s misleading or false. Some are very convincing, playing along with propaganda, while others are simply irrelevant, bypassed by the system. That’s not a judgment, just an observation☝️.

In all honesty, I’ve seen a lot of content out there, and I recognize that much of it is driven by agendas. I’ve always known I would face suppression. I’ve only ever tried to grow gradually, running a few ads here and there, because it was never about gaining recognition.

It does hurt me that my teachings haven’t reached as many people as I’d hoped, but I’m truly grateful for those I have reached. I would love to connect with more, humbly, if it’s the Lord’s will. If not, I accept that too.

I may have mentioned this before, but if I had met someone with the knowledge I possess and the ability to foresee the future, watching it all unfold exactly as I predicted, I believe I would have felt a deep sense of loyalty and respect for that person. Not in a cold or distant way, but with genuine honor and admiration. And I don’t say that in a way of ego. I just say that out of having confidence and respect for my relationship with God, and what he taught me. Take it, or leave it.🫡

Many of the people who have been part of my courses have shown me a lot of love and respect, and for that, I am truly grateful🙇🏼‍♀️. Through them, I’ve found true friends. Some know me beyond the internet, they see that I’m a bit quirky and silly, not just a stern spiritual teacher. That playful, lighthearted side is often how heaven channels through me. Otherwise, I’m very childlike and affectionate.

Sometimes, I think this innocence and love can be confusing for others🤔. My genuine, heartfelt nature might come across the wrong way at times😘. But above all, my relationship with God is everything to me, and I want others who are truly seeking Him to experience that same connection. I don’t want any of this to become a competition over who knows more or who can gather more followers.

Sadly, some people have tried to make it seem like their divine purpose is to deliver spiritual truths, but I believe everyone has their own purpose. Sharing some of what they’ve learned may very well be a part of that purpose, but it shouldn’t be used to overshadow or misrepresent mine. 😢

My goal is simply to serve, humbly and sincerely, without trying to claim ownership over divine knowledge or spiritual insight but to ensure it’s not misrepresented or falling into the wrong hands.

Please know I hold no anger or resentment, I love all of you from the bottom of my heart. I have been so passive already. Now, I have to place some firmness in this respect. The truth is, I’m not a joke🤓, and my work isn’t about money. 

My primary purpose is to serve out of love for God and to genuinely help others. I have enough respect for my relationship with Him and my teachings to know when it’s necessary to let certain people go. This doesn’t mean our friendship ends, though they may be upset with me, but I won’t allow my information to be exploited by fake gurus trying to imitate and add falsely to what I’ve shared.

That’s why I’m working on putting these courses into written form. 

Back To The Courses

For the Tantra Course, I’ll  also include an audio to accompany the lessons so that students can read along if they prefer, along with a hard copy. This is a very important project for me, and I need to focus on completing it. 

While I’m still working on other services, my priority is finishing these courses. I’m not intentionally dragging things out; I believe in giving people time, space to catch up, revisit lessons, and compare what they’ve learned with the new Bible course. True students understand that this is a journey that takes time. Studying is deep.

In truth, this isn’t some college curriculum or content factory. It’s a mystery school🫆, and I want to ensure everything is accurate and sacred. 

These days, many claim to speak to God or prophesy, but I know in my heart that, while I may not be the only gifted person, many of those now jumping on the prophetic Christian bandwagon weren’t saying half of what I’ve shared over the years. I’m not trying to be rude, these are just facts. I’m simply protecting myself because I take this work seriously. If it had ever been about fame, I wouldn’t care, yet my focus remains on serving God and the truth. 

With all of that being said, I’d like to include an excerpt from the tantra course and share what will be covered in the next lesson. It’s quite interesting, and I think you’ll find it valuable.

Tantra- Next Lesson

An excerpt …

“Tantra is about maintaining awareness that all parts of yourself are interconnected and functioning together. This idea ties into what I discussed in my previous course, Lightology, where I emphasized the importance of balance. Let me refresh your memory, or if you haven’t taken that course, I’ll briefly introduce the concept so everyone can become familiar with it.

First and foremost, balance is the foundation of everything. Without it, chaos inevitably takes over. Any genuine spiritual teacher will teach the importance of balance, and they must live by it themselves. No matter how much chaos may be happening in their external life or around them, their inner self must remain centered and balanced. This inner harmony allows them to work effectively amidst chaos and to stop its influence from taking over.

The reason I often share my struggles with negativity and the challenges I face isn’t for sympathy; it’s to show that I, like anyone else, encounter real situations. However, as a wise person, I’ve learned how to handle them without letting them tear me down or affect my inner peace.

As an Oracle, I am deeply attuned to all vibrations around me. I can sense energy in everything and everyone, if someone is nervous, I feel that nervousness; if they’re hungry, I sense their hunger; if they’re feeling depressed, I experience that depression. Many people who are highly sensitive or empathy often absorb these vibrations as if they are their own, which can be overwhelming.

The difference between them and me, is that I am aware that these feelings are not mine. I can trace with visions and channeling, further into where they’re coming from, and gain an understanding why, what happened in the past or present, and what may unfold in the future. Because of this, I can offer truthful insights to help others, even from afar. I know exactly what’s happening in their lives.

While an empath might simply pick up on the vibrations of those around them, I do more than that, I receive visions and impressions that come from beyond this world. This connection is extraordinary and intense, making it difficult to maintain a sense of balance when so much is happening simultaneously. On top of that, I face physical situations and external chaos.

Achieving total balance in such chaos can sometimes seem impossible, even for me. But if I, with all my sensitivity and abilities, can find inner harmony amid the turmoil, then so can you. That’s why I share my experiences. I believe that if I can manage to maintain inner peace despite absorbing so much imbalance from the world, my environment, and my personal life, there is a deeper reason behind it.

It all comes down to the knowledge and understanding of God, and my true twin flame. I’ll explain my previous experience with relationships and their meaning, and go into intimate details. After finding your truest twin flame, you will be able to connect deeply with God even more. 

That connection allows you to sustain balance and clarity despite the chaos. 

Although, for me… my true soul mate may not be who many think. In future lessons, I’ll share unknown things about my life and reveal not only secret personal truths, but existential truths that will relate to you also. It may shock you!🤫

The course will go into that and who my divine mirror truly is, and explains things in an eye opening way about friendships, relationships, God, sacrifice, purity, humbleness, generosity and virtue. You may not understand now, but I assure you that Tantra will help you to make sense of it all. I know that for many people, it will make sense of a lot of different things, including me, as well as my teachings, and things that I have said and done. It will also bring clarity for your journey, your ultimate soulmate, and bring conclusion to how to operate in this matrix just a little above it, according to heavenly teachings.

Returning to the idea of balance, in my previous courses, I explained how crucial it is to have all aspects of your life in order. When one area is out of sync, it acts like a magnet, drawing energy and focus away from other areas. This creates what I call a “drain,” because the parts of your life that demand more attention and energy will take away from areas where you have less. Over time, these draining areas lead to chaos and imbalance.

In my Indignation course, I described darkness as being like a vacuum, something that constantly pulls and consumes. Darkness and evil are different; darkness itself is simply a vacuum, a magnet that seeks to fill itself. This is where it can turn into something destructive or evil. People who feel the need to continuously fill themselves with something, anything that temporarily makes them feel good, are often trying to fill a void within.

Life works the same way. 

When you’re empty inside, you become chaotic and try to fill that emptiness with anything available. 

Unfortunately, most of these temporary fixes are not permanent solutions. That’s why many people are so unhappy, they keep jumping from one distraction to another instead of seeking the one thing they truly need: wholeness.

True balance and fulfillment come from God and your twin flame, and when you achieve finding one, you can eventually connect to the other. After that, everything else falls into place”.

To be continued…

This week has been a wild one, but everything fell into place with the angelic message I received after hitting my head and experiencing a concussion. It all comes back to balance. 

When I shared about what happened, and over the years, many other challenges I have faced, I know that some people misunderstood the deeper message behind those posts. I’m not trying to portray my life as perfect. My intention is to teach a profound truth that goes beyond the challenges I face. This understanding is crucial for awakening, if  anyone is truly committed to that journey.

It’s important to remember that struggles and experiences serve a higher purpose, they’re part of the process of awakening and growth. That’s why I share them with everyone online, not for sympathy, but to reveal the deeper lessons that lie beneath the surface. Being calm, is another huge part of it. 

I’m looking forward to the new lessons up ahead. I can’t wait to teach people how to find their true twin flame, to reveal who my truest divine connection is, and show people how to connect with God. Plus, some things in between like nirvana, and prana. It’s all about ascension!

The wisdom is unparalleled.

For now, I just wanted to give everybody these updates and to let everyone know that I am OK. I’m just going to be a little busy working, and I’m always here for all of you if not through communications, through constant prayer and channeling that I do to check in with many of you. 

If you are expecting any soul development or life coaching, I will have you set up at the end of this month as promised in my Facebook post. I truly appreciate you all. With all of my heart I love each and every one of you. If you do you happen to be one of the people ejected from my course, please hopefully forgive me with this true guidance and insight. And please know that I’ll still be posting things throughout the week, but otherwise I will not have a phone on me or any other devices around too much, so that I can focus on getting the lessons completed, that I need for the courses, being how important they truly are in more ways than one. 

The next course for Tantra will be sometime over the weekend. And again in the Bible course will come sometime after the weekend too.

The twin flame in all of its truth, is beyond human understanding. Let’s get you all beyond it, and into truth.